Binki Shapiro and Fabrizio Moretti from Little Joy photographed by Serge Leblon.
Saturday, April 30, 2011
Thursday, April 28, 2011
Congratulations!
This is a salute to two of my dearest friends, Adam and Amanda. They are getting hitched today! Wishing you guys the best on your continued life together. Yay!
Tuesday, April 26, 2011
Monday, April 25, 2011
Friday, April 22, 2011
Another Chance
So I'm back from the hospital and just awaiting recovery to face my final session of chemotherapy. This last cycle wasn't as rough as I imagined it could be but the long term side effects and scars are starting to become more apparent. Small prices to pay for a possible cure.
Anyway, I had to share my excitement about this trailer for what looks like could be a really powerful movie.
As always, most interested in stories about second chances, redemption and people facing incredible circumstances; I'm pretty pumped about Another Earth. Some would say I fit the bill of one of these people, taking a step away I might agree, and on a perhaps less egotistical level I would also say that my life is no different from anyone else's and no can really imagine the pain that goes on behind closed doors even though mine might be a little bit harder to disguise.
Pretty soon I might have gotten my second chance. Time will tell if I do, the cancer could come back soon and I could have less than a year to live or it could come back never and I might live till old and gray. I suppose I should get used to the ambiguity.
Faced once again with the possibility of leading a healthy life and getting a second go of it as I face my 30th birthday more questions arise than answers.
I have found a new meaning in life and a reawakening perhaps of what's really important and valuable...but now that I know that...what comes next? What do I really want to make of my life? How do I want it to be? How I can get there, as I face a potential new chapter of adulthood?
Questions I suppose will be answered on a day to day. There is no use worrying about what hasn't happened yet. Right now I can only learn to forgive myself for irreparable mistakes made only against myself and just let go. Time will tell and I hope to be given the chance not to fuck it up.
Anyway, I had to share my excitement about this trailer for what looks like could be a really powerful movie.
As always, most interested in stories about second chances, redemption and people facing incredible circumstances; I'm pretty pumped about Another Earth. Some would say I fit the bill of one of these people, taking a step away I might agree, and on a perhaps less egotistical level I would also say that my life is no different from anyone else's and no can really imagine the pain that goes on behind closed doors even though mine might be a little bit harder to disguise.
Pretty soon I might have gotten my second chance. Time will tell if I do, the cancer could come back soon and I could have less than a year to live or it could come back never and I might live till old and gray. I suppose I should get used to the ambiguity.
Faced once again with the possibility of leading a healthy life and getting a second go of it as I face my 30th birthday more questions arise than answers.
I have found a new meaning in life and a reawakening perhaps of what's really important and valuable...but now that I know that...what comes next? What do I really want to make of my life? How do I want it to be? How I can get there, as I face a potential new chapter of adulthood?
Questions I suppose will be answered on a day to day. There is no use worrying about what hasn't happened yet. Right now I can only learn to forgive myself for irreparable mistakes made only against myself and just let go. Time will tell and I hope to be given the chance not to fuck it up.
Thank You
Thank you Becky, Julie and Heidi. And thank you to everyone who in one way or another has shown unwavering support.
Saturday, March 26, 2011
Admit One
I'm gonna be taking a break from my blog. Anyone who knows me or has followed this blog somewhat, knows I have cancer. And tomorrow I start the mother of all treatments. A bone marrow transplant. High dose chemo being key. I have pretty good odds, although in the immediate reality this doesn't make the next few months any easier. Chemo is poison and it will once again lay waste to everything and anything in it's path, to, in the process kill all cancer in my body. Side effects are supposed to be gruesome and from everyone that I've talked to who knows someone or who has gone through the procedure themselves, well it's pretty life changing and difficult to say the least.
Here I go. One last time.
Thank you for reading and stopping by. Hope to come back soon.
Cristian
Tuesday, March 15, 2011
Friday, March 11, 2011
Puberty
Crazy animated short by Alexander Gellner about the best time of our young lives. Not.
One Minute Puberty from bitteschön.tv on Vimeo.
Wednesday, March 9, 2011
Conversations with Cancer
To believe, when all along we humans know that nothing can cure the briefness of this life, that there is no remedy for our basic mortality, that is a form of bravery.
To continue believing in yourself, believing in the doctors, believing in the treatment, believing in whatever I chose to believe in, that was the most important thing, I decided. It had to be.
Without belief, we would be left with nothing but an overwhelming doom, every single day. And it will beat you. I didn't fully see, until the cancer, how we fight every day against the creeping negatives of the world, how we struggle daily against the slow lapping of cynicism. Dispiritedness and disappointment, these were the real perils of live, not some sudden illness or cataclysmic millennium doomsday. I knew ow why people fear cancer: because it is a slow and inveitable death, it is the very definition of cynicism and loss of spirit.
So, I believed.
-Lance Armstrong , It's Not About the Bike.
To continue believing in yourself, believing in the doctors, believing in the treatment, believing in whatever I chose to believe in, that was the most important thing, I decided. It had to be.
Without belief, we would be left with nothing but an overwhelming doom, every single day. And it will beat you. I didn't fully see, until the cancer, how we fight every day against the creeping negatives of the world, how we struggle daily against the slow lapping of cynicism. Dispiritedness and disappointment, these were the real perils of live, not some sudden illness or cataclysmic millennium doomsday. I knew ow why people fear cancer: because it is a slow and inveitable death, it is the very definition of cynicism and loss of spirit.
So, I believed.
-Lance Armstrong , It's Not About the Bike.
Darren and Natalie plus Rodarte
So last night I went to see Black Swan again to a theater near my house. I loved the movie so much I felt it deserved a second viewing in the theater to appreciate things I might have missed the first time around. So I salute Rodarte for the gorgeous costumes, Natalie Portman for her well deserved Oscar and Darren Aronofsky for being able to consistently create movies that are visceral, moving and unsettling.
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